Tuesday, January 31, 2006

Hero - Mariah Carey

Mariah Carey is one of my favourite singers. She got the look, the voice, and everything someone need to stand amongst world's best entertainers. Her songs are always nice, charming, entertaining, and meaningful. One of my favourite is "Hero" which is a quite old song.

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time
You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Yes, there is a hero inside each of us. I believe that. Sometimes we just want to say "Aiyohh.. I can't do it lah. This task is very difficult one." But actually we are stronger than what we think. We just need to awake our hero in ourself. That hero is called "BELIEVE". When we believe in something, our mind will focus on that thing. Like a laser who is able to cut metals. Henry Ford said "If you say you can or can't, you are right." How true isn't it?
When we think that we can't do something, our mind shuts down. It will keep telling us "U blind or what? You surely can't do it." And what happens next? Yes, our mind is right. We can't do it. Then we tell our mind "You are right lor.. I am too dumb to do this. Next time, no need to try. Surely fail one."
And the best part is, everytime we are facing the same problem, we are very sure that we can't face that problem, and again.. we are right. Vice versa.

So, everytime you think that you can't face your problem, remember Mariah Carey. She is always beautiful :D

Monday, January 30, 2006

A stranger...

Will u say no if a girl asks u to accompany her when she is asked to accompany a stranger walking around the city? Of course the answer is no (unless u are inhuman).
Yeah, that's exactly what happens wif me today. And the rest is history :D
OK, there is a stranger from Australia visiting Singapore for the first time. I dun noe how he got to know her (the girl I mentioned above). But finally, he asked her to accompany him travelling around the city. We (the stranger, my fren, and I) went to Orchard, Suntec City, Merlion, and finally come back to NTU. It is a very long and boring journey for me, because I visited those place just some days ago. My legs got tired very easily. And the worst part is, most of the shops still closed today. I like to do shopping (who doesn't like to spend money to buy something he likes?). And today I buy a Samuel & Kevin T-shirt that cost me $10. Good price actually. But yeah, that's the only stuff I can buy today.
After visiting Orchard, we went to Suntec City. We had our dinner at Fish & Co. It's my second time eating there since I come to Singaporebut I am still amazed with the ambiance there. It's not very luxurious. It is not heavely decorated. Just simple and sweet. But I don't know. I just feel very relax and comfortable sitting there. However, nothing is perfect in this world. The waiting time is long. I dun like waiting (who likes?).
After taking lots and lots of photos (100++ photos in one day!), we finally decided to go back. I slept in MRT (Yes, I did sleep there). I am really really tired.
However, I dun regret my precious 7-hours used to accompany that stranger. It's always nice to be nice to people.

vegetarian food rocks!!

I ve just come back from canteen 2. That canteen shud be awarded "the best of the best canteen in NTU forever."!
During Chinese New Year, when most of the canteens in NTU closed, vegetarian stall and sichuan cuisine stall at canteen 2 open, luckily. If not, I have to cook instant noodle (again!) for my lunch. My cooking skill is very poor. I can't even cook instant noodle properly. Maybe I shud look for a wife that can cook a lot of delicious foods hahaha.. :D
I had my lunch with 2 girls (they are my juniors here), after long time never eat together with both of them. Me so busy leh.. Got lots of assignments and commitee tasks. So I usually eat "da pao" (take away) in my room, alone! I am not very very introvert lah. But yeah.. sometimes I eat and check E-mail in the same time. You know, I am a very effective kind of person :p
Now It's really time for study. No choice lor. Tommorow is the last day of Chinese New Year holiday. And I still got lots of works to do. Jia you jia you..

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Gong Xi Fa Cai everyone...!!

Today, chinese people regardless of nationality celebrate Chinese New Year. This year is Puppy Year. I dun really understand what the year means and its impact on me. My family got chinese tradition and they do celebrate it every year. Elder (or married) people usually give Ang Pao (red envelope with money inside) to younger ones. And the fact is.. this year I cant get any single cent of Ang Pao because I dun go back to my home country, Indonesia. So sad leh..
I have just come back from Esplanade, seeing Fireworks. It is beautiful, really! Our eyes are pampered by such beautiful movement of fireworks and nice sound. I guess it lasted for more than 5 minutes. What a nice view.

I am still sick, but I think I get better now. After consuming lots and lots of water and vitamin C, I feel more energetic. Still got a bit of headache, but I am sure it will recover very soon. So I can study tommorow (yes, I said 2moro, not today ok..).

OK, now it's time to sleep... Sleeping is always nice for everyone.. Cya 2moro... :)

Friday, January 27, 2006

I am S.I.C.K

Today is Friday night. I have just finished watching my very nice Singapore drama called Love concierge starring Jacelyn Tay, Ann Mok, Fiona Xie, Thomas Ong, and many more.
And now I am sitting on my very lovely chair browsing internet lazily. Really lazy to do anything (esp. study). My condition is not very good now. Got infuenza. Maybe should take more vitamins. I am busy so sometimes I can't sleep enuff. Sometimes I got insomnia and wake up at 5 in the morning T_T And feel that I always lack of sleep. Tend to skip classes. When I am in a class attending lecture, I feel extremely bored and hope that the lecturers finish their lectures ASAP (that is now).
Maybe I should try to relax more. I have signed up for yoga class. And I have attended once. It helps sometimes, but sometimes it's just not enuff. I am just not patient enuff to do deep-breathing for a couple of minutes. Have I told u before that I am B.U.S.Y? Maybe I shud buy some medicine that will help me to relax INSTANTLY and help me to feel energetic when I attend lectures, or tutorial, or lab session, or study. Huhh..

And now with really a lot of used tissues in my table, I feel very very lonely. My roomate went to Malaysia for Chinese New Year and I have noone to talk to. MSN people sucks. They appear online but no answer when I call them.

Am I suffering from depression syndrom? I think I am O.K.
Well, not that O.K. lah, but at least it's not very terrible. I still can write in my very lovely blog. Dunno lah if the sentences all broken one.

After this, I am trying to study something, coz after CNY, surely there will be a lot of tests. And I just don't like to fail that tests. Failure sucks. So?? Study now lahh..!!

Thursday, January 26, 2006

What happened wif my life??

Today I do practically nothing. Attend lecture and tutorial... yes, that's it.
And I had wasted more than 5 hours doing rubbish. Chat, surf the internet, walk here walk there. Argghhhh... I feel really strange wif my life. It is just too strange to be true. What happened Benny??
Oh.. please... There is only about 4 hours before midnite and I have to finish my drawing assignment.. And I dun understand what is it about.
Lord, have mercy

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Energizing my day

Today I feel very energetic. I finished my lesson at 6.30 (and the last hour is lecture). After that, I went to SAC (Student Activities Center) for photo-taking session. I am NTUSU subcommer for 3 commitee. I arrived at SAC at 5.45 (u know, I am always on time :))
After having a dinner there (alone!!), I read my lecture notes to kill the time.
As a subcommer for 3 commitee, actually I am not very busy. Of course I do my job well lah.. but I just feel that my time is abundant. When you think that 24 hours a day is enough, It will be enough. Vice versa. Maybe I have to take more subjects next semester, or take part in more activities.

Yesterday, I was engaged in a deep thinking about my university life. It is so plain u know. I play badminton for my hall last holiday. Actually I wanted to be the captain for the badminton team in my hall. However, the maincomm chose my ex- roomate for that position. I think he is just not the right person. Well... his badminton skill is good lah.. (although I am better, honestly..). But He just don't have ability to be a captain. Poor leadership. Poor interpersonal skill. Poor decision-making skill. And the list goes on. We can't blame the maincomm. Who knows the captain's quality before. Just give a chance lah.. But he has failed to do his task pathetically. So pity. Hope the maincomm will choose a better captain next year to make our hall better. I, of course, will apply for that position again next year. I love my hall so much, and I will give the best for my hall.

Hope I will enjoy my hall life better.