Saturday, May 20, 2006

My EID..

After having exams for around 1 month (that’s terrible!), finally I can take a deep breath. Exam is over, although Result is not out, yet. I ve given my very best and I will be satisfied, no matter how my result is.
Now, it’s time to party… No!! I still have EID (Engineering Innovation and Design). Basically in this project, we are assigned to innovate an engineering product. We do everything. Yes, everything. We brainstorm the idea (which is really tiring), think about its mechanism and configuration (I dun really understand the meaning of those words, but as an engineer-wannabe, I have to use those words really often :D), make the prototype, think about how are we going to market that product, write reports, set booth, and present our idea. As a student of “world-class university”, we have to be able to do those works :P

Besides doing our projects, we have to attend several modules also. Actually I chose Material selection module as my elective. However, because there was one new member in our group, and she chose the same module as me, I have to change module. I don’t know what’s going on, until finally, my elective changed “automatically” to mechatronics. I was really shocked with that! That module sounds “chim” (hokkien word for difficult). That module needs programming and I am not very good at programming. I have asked everyone, beg them (not that pathetic lah :P) to change module with me, but noone is willing to do that. All of us feel that that module is really difficult and noone dared to take that module. And finally, someone who had to take that module is…. Me, thank you! T_T

However, I am a very optimistic person (I dun force you to believe me, after reading my previous paragraph :P), I believe that nothing is too difficult for me to handle. I believe that nothing is out of my boundary (quoting Rebecca, runner-up of The Apprentice 4).
If you are afraid of something, the best way to eliminate your fear is... by facing it. I am not kidding at all. That’s true. I always say to myself “Dun be afraid, u will be alright.”
And I am alright. I can complete my module in 4 days, instead of the time allowed, that’s 5 days.

After completing my last assignment well, I feel extremely satisfied. I enter my mechatronics lab with no background knowledge. I even dunno what the difference between analog and digital signal is. I only have one thing… an attitude to learn. That’s it. And that attitude makes me able to overcome anything. Yes, you read it correctly. Anything!

I still have 3 weeks to complete my project. But I believe that we are capable to complete our project extremely well. If you, my team-mates, happen to read my blog, I wanna say, I am proud of you and together we can do it! Jia you!!

Thursday, April 06, 2006

Happy Birthday to Myself =)

Today is an extremely important day for me because today I have completed my registration to join club 20's. Yeah.. Today I am 20 years old already. So happy but in the same time feeling so sad. Because when u are 20 years and older, you are an adult, and u are expected to take responsibility for whatever u do. I believe in that. I can't be so moody like a teenager. I have to be able to control my emotion and my action. And also control my anger (which is very difficult for me to control).

Btw, last midnight, I celebrated my birthday with my friends. It is a very simple and short celebration (less than 1 hour), yet it is very meaningful for me. We just ate pizza and a bit of talk and took photo together. That's all. And of course like most of my friends' birthday, the guests give testimonial to someone who celebrates his/her birthday. And I did receive some testimonials. I really appreciate those. Thanks guys.. I promise to improve myself better in the future.

And in my birthdays (beside new years and new semesters), I always make some resolutions to improve myself.
1. To Improve my relationships with my family and friends.
2. To Improve my relationship with my God and savior, Jesus Christ. And rely more on Him.
3. To be able to control my emotion, feeling, anger, and mood.
4. To excel in my study and in my IA (Industrial Attachment).
5. To gain confidence in myself which somehow eroded these years
6. To think more positively and not to grumble when I face problems.
7. To be a stronger person.
8. To learn to love a person in a better way.
9. To do a diet in a healthy way. In the same time improve my level of fitness.
10. To smile more =)

Those resolutions are not by order of importance. They are all important for me. I will do my very best to achieve those resolutions.

OK.. and finally.. happy birthday to myself. Wish me a very good luck! =)

Monday, March 20, 2006

Motivational Words Work!!

I like (oh no, LOVE!) reading motivational words. It helps me to cope with my study, give me new insight of life and make me feel good. Unfortunately, there is no such a thing as universally true motivational sentence, meaning to say, a particular motivational sentence may change someone's life but maybe it is just another sentence in another file in someone's computer memory. But for me especially, spending time to read and think about some motivational words everyday keeps me motivated and can achieve more and more. These are some motivational words that I like.

Motivation will almost always beat mere talent

The world can only be grasped by action, not by contemplation...The hand is the cutting edge of the mind.

It is time for us to stand and cheer for the doer,the achiever, the one who recognizes the challenge and does something about it.

Many of life's failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up.

Obstacles are those frightful things you see when you take your eyes off your goal.

Character is like a treeand reputation like its shadow. The shadow is what we think of it; the tree is the real thing.

Too many people overvalue what they are not and undervalue what they are.

The tragedy in life doesn't liein not reaching your goal.The tragedy lies in having no goal to reach.

Victory belongs to the most persevering.

Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending.

Success is never final.Failure is never fatal.

I think a hero is an ordinary individual who finds strength to persevere and endure in spite of overwhelming obstacles.

The difference between a successful person and others is not a lack of strength, not a lack of knowledge, but rather a lack of will.

The secret of joy in work is contained in one word -- excellence. To know how to do something well is to enjoy it.

Success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.

It is a rough road that leads to the heights of greatness.

Success is how high you bounce when you hit bottom.

Success will not lower its standard to us.We must raise our standard to success.

A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks that others throw at him.

A man is not finished when he is defeated. He is finished when he quits.

Yesterday is a cancelled check;Tomorrow is a promissory note;Today is the only cash you have,so spend it wisely.

How you spend your time is more important than how you spend your money. Money mistakes can be corrected, but time is gone forever.

One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon - instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.

One of the most tragic things I know about human nature is that all of us tend to put off living. We are all dreaming of some magical rose garden over the horizon - instead of enjoying the roses that are blooming outside our windows today.

Most look up and admire the stars. A champion climbs a mountain and grabs one.

The middle of every successful project looks like a disaster.

Successful and unsuccessful people do not vary greatly in their abilities. They vary in their desires to reach their potential.

Unless you try to do something beyond what you have already mastered, you will never grow.

Success is not measured by what a man accomplishes, but by the opposition he has encountered and the courage with which he has maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds.

I cannot give you a formula for success, but I can give you the formula for failure - which is: try to please everybody.

Don't measure yourself by what you have accomplished, but by what you should have accomplished with your ability.

The most extraordinary thing about the oyster is this. Irritations get into the shell... And when he cannot get rid of them, he uses the irritations to do the loveliest thing an oyster ever has the chance to do. If there are irritations in our lives today, there is only one prescription: make a pearl - And it takes faith and love to do it.


The bold-typed sentences are amongst my favourite quotes. I ve read those sentences more than 20 times and I still love to read them. It doesn't mean than I am too weak to live my life. I know that I am a very tough person. But even the toughest person in the world ever feel down sometimes and that's when the motivational words work best. Happy trying! =)




Thursday, March 16, 2006

Let's Kiasu!

When u see our beloved library and reading room are full with frustated people studying there, yes u are right. Exam is coming soon. My first exam is starting in 25 days.
For me, one semester here can be divided into 3 terms. The first term is the first 5 weeks in a semester. It is a very nice period for me to relax and no need to bother about study. I just go to lectures and tutorials (and sometimes, I said sometimes, skip them). Weekends (Friday nite-Saturday-Sunday) are always nice because I can enjoy my life (Actually I enjoy every second of my life, but u know, u can't always see the meaning of a sentence by read it once).
The second term is week 6 to 8. It is called a transitional term. It is when I start to panic and write some motivational words in my lecture notes in order not to sleep in lecture and study hard. It is time to repent all my sins during the first 5 weeks.
The last and the most scary term is week 9 onwards. It is time when I start hogging chair in reading room and library and I start to buy instant coffee after saturday church mass. It is time when I thank God if my computer crash so I can't waste my precious time surfing internet.

And now is week 10. I still have a lot of subjects to catch up especially Engineering Graphics, Electronics, Manufacturing, and my Prescribed Electives (It means almost all the subjects I take this semester T_T). The only subject I am quite confident with is Mathematics. I don't need to worry because I got an A+ for math last semester (you see, people like to emphasize their strength :D).

Everytime I am studying for exam, I always write a goal, what grades I have to achieve for my subjects. Sometimes I can achieve it, sometimes I can't. But if I set goal, It means I have to study hard to achieve that goal. Here is my goal for this semester.

Subject Result
MP2004 Manufacturing A
MP2005 Fluid A+
MP2006 Mathematics 4 A+
MP2008 Electronics A
MP2011 Engineering Graphics A
MP2071 Laboratory A-
CPE810 Resolving and Managing Conflict A-

Maybe I set the goal too high? Hahaha.. no lah. I believe that I can achieve that goal if I study hard for my exam. Jia you Benny.. Jia you..!!

"Dream to reach the sky. If you fail, you can still reach the cloud." - anonymous

Tuesday, March 14, 2006

tired?? read this!!

God: Hello. Did you call me?
Me: Called you? No. Who is this?
God: This is GOD. I heard your prayers. So Ithought I will Chat .
Me: I do pray. Just makes me feel good. I amactually busy now. I am inthe midst of something.
God: What are you busy at? Ants are busy too.
Me: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life hasbecome hectic. It'srush hour all the time.
God: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivitygets you results.Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.
Me: I understand. But I still can't figure out. By theway, I was notexpecting YOU to buzz me on instant messagingchat.
God: Well, I wanted to resolve your fight for time,by giving you someclarity. In this net era, I wanted to reach youthrough the Medium youare comfortable with.
Me: Tell me, why has life become complicatednow?
God: Stop analyzing life. Just live it. Analysis iswhat makes itcomplicated .
Me: Why are we then constantly unhappy?
God: Your today is the tomorrow that you worriedabout yesterday. Youare worrying because you are analyzing.Worrying has become your habit. That's why youare not happy.
Me: But how can we not worry when there is somuch uncertainty?
God: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying isoptional .
Me: But then, there is so much pain due touncertainty...
God: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.
Me: If suffering is optional, why do good peoplealways suffer?
God: Diamond cannot be polished without friction.Gold cannot bepurified without fire. Good people go through trials,but don't suffer.With that experience their life becomes better, notbitter.
Me: You mean to say such experience is useful?
God:?Yes. In every term, Experience is a hardteacher.She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.
Me: But still, why should we go through suchtests?Why can't we be free from problems?
God: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks OfferingBeneficial Lessons toEnhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comesfrom struggle andendurance, not when you are free from problems.
Me: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, wedon't know where we areheading...
God: If you look outside you will not know whereyou are heading. Lookinside. Looking outside, you dream.Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight.Heart provides insight.
Me: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurtmore than moving In theright direction. What should I do ?
God: Success is a measure as decided by others.Satisfaction is a measure as decided by you.Knowing the road ahead ismore satisfying than knowing you rode ahead. You work with the compass. Let others work with the clock.
Me: In tough times, how do you stay motivated?
God: Always look at how far you have come ratherthan how far you haveto go. Always count your blessing, not what youare missing.
Me: What surprises you about people?
God: When they suffer they ask, "why me?" Whenthey prosper, they neverask "Why me?" Everyone wishes to have truth ontheir side, but few wantto be on the side of the truth.
Me: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here. Ican't get the answer.
God: Seek not to find who you are, but todetermine who you want to be.Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here.Create it. Life isnot a process of discovery, but a process ofcreation.
Me: How can I get the best out of life?
God: Face your past without regret. Handle yourpresent with confidence.Prepare for the future without fear.
Me: One last question. Sometimes I feel myprayers are not answered.
God: There are no unanswered prayers. At timesthe answer is NO.
Me: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I am sohappy to start the NewDay with a new sense of inspiration.
God: Well. Keep the faith and drop the fear. Don'tbelieve your doubtsand doubt your beliefs. Life is a mystery to solve,not a problem toresolve. Trust me. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

http://angelinasondakh.blogs.com/

If you are an indonesian or u know intermediate bahasa indonesia, there is one blog that you should read. This blog is written by former Putri Indonesia (Miss Indonesia) 2001, Angelina Sondakh.
http://angelinasondakh.blogs.com/
She is such a perfect women who has 4B's : Brain, Beauty, Behaviour, Blessed.
I am definitely a big fans of her =)

My Love Life (part 2)

Just after I wrote a post titled "My Love Life", a friend of me call me on MSN and give some comment to me. And during this week, I received some comments from my best friends or just someone-out-there who happen to read my blog. I am not a celebrity anyway, but I think it is very common among my friends and me to comment on each other. I am a very open-minded person and I am very open to any kind of comment no matter how discouraging that comment is. I am so surprised that most of them don't support my decision. They asked me why I gave-up so easily. Some of my friends asked me whether I still love that girl. I have to be honest that I still love her. I have to be honest that I am lonely without her although I am surrounded by a lot of people. I still miss our days together.

However, I have make up my mind. For me, give up means give up. It is the end of everything. And some friends said that I am a loser in love life? YES, I AM! However, at least I am a good loser. I know how to lose nicely and I am happy with that.

I am always proud of myself for being such a tough person. My life is still O.K. despite of all the problems in my love life. It is funny to see a lot of people feel so depressed because of love matter. STUPID! Life is not only about love, although you can't live without it.

I will survive... I know I will..

Monday, March 06, 2006

You Raise Me Up..

Listening to music is one of my hobbies. However, unless most of the people who like to listen to easy going, sweet, and crunchy kind of songs (my vocab is very strange sometimes :p), I judge the quality of the song by its meaning. I do like beautiful song, but some of them are rubbish in terms of lyrics and it's better for them to be played using instruments only.

However, this song titled "You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban is both beautiful and meaningful. It's one of the best song I ve ever heard in terms of lyrics. I want so share with u some lines of that song (and for the rest, u can easily use google to search :p)

When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit awhile with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up.. To more than I can be

Wow.. this song is incredible. Amazing! How true isn't it?
Do you remember one time when you feel very lethargic. You didn't feel like enjoy doing anything. You felt that all you ve done is really messy. You felt that people are watching you and waiting for you to make mistake and immediately laughing at you sarcastically. And the list goes on.

And suddenly you received a funny sms from ur best fren, or a send-to-10-people-or-u-will-get-bad-luck-for-10-years kind of mass E-mail. And you suddenly smiled and forgot all ur problems or maybe laugh very loud and all the people in the library stared at you (Dun worry, i did it twice :p). And because of that, u will remember ur fren's kindness for the rest of ur day and even still remember it while u were showering urself in the evening.

2 weeks ago, I become one of the commitee members of NTUSU Welfare Festival. This event is really grand. However, we really lack of man power for that event. That's why the commitee members have to work extra hard. After working for 12 hours almost without rest (see my post before titled "My All"), I felt that my effort has paid off only because of one statement given by one of the maincomms. He really thanked me sincerely for helping out the event and he said that he can't imagine how hard he will be working if I didn't help him. I was really impressed with him. He is one of the busiest person in that event. And his responsibility is much greater than me. Yet he still have time to thank me sincerely. That small thing differentiates the great leaders and so-so ones.

If you don't have time reading my long post, I just want to remind you that you will never be too small to brighten someone's day. It doesn't take much to do it. When you know that someone is very tired, give him/her one or two sentences of encouragement. I usually use these kind of sentences to cheer-up someone.

"I can understand how you feel. You must go thru a very hard time. But I know that u are a very tough person. I am very sure that u can overcome this successfully. Jia you.. "

Haha.. it's like "copy-paste" kind of sentence. But it helps.

Or if you find someone that help you with something, no matter how small it is, u can say..
"I really don't know how to thank you. You are a very busy person yet you still want to help me with this. I really appreciate your help."
Sounds nice right?

How if you really don't have 20 seconds to say that?
Smile and say "thank you" sincerely. It will cost you less than 5 seconds of your time and less than 10 kcal of your energy and you can still brighten someone's day.



"I will never allow people to come to me and leave me without feeling better" - anonymous

Friday, February 24, 2006

what hv u learned in life??

I've learned that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in.
I've learned that no matter how much I care, some people are just assholes.
I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and it only takes suspicion, not proof, to destroy it.
I've learned that you can get byon charm for about fifteen minutes. After that, you'd better have abig weenie or huge boobs.
I've learned that you shouldn't compare yourself to others - they are more screwed up than you think.
I've learned that you can keep puking long after you think you're finished.
I've learned that we are responsible for what we do, unless we are celebrities.
I've learned that regardless of how hot and steamy a relationship is at first, the passion fades, and there had better be a lot of money to take its place.
I've learned that the people you care most about in life are taken from you too soon and all the less important ones just never go away.

by = dun-know-and-dun-care-who-write-this

Thursday, February 23, 2006

My Love Life..

If I can change one particular part of my life, I will definitely consider love as one of the candidates. I can be very very quick in decide something (and very seldom regretting it). However, I am a very undecisive person in love matters. But finally, I ve decided to make an important decision today. I love a girl (I am sure she knows it), but after a lot of consideration, I decide to give up. If you (the girl I mention above) read this, I want to state that I have given up on you, officially from today. I am not the right person for you. If we love someome, we definitely try our best to make her happy. And I have failed to do that. The saddest part is, we are so close yet we are so far.
Thank you for accompanying me during one of the most difficult times in my life (whether you realize it or not).
I will be trying my best to forget my love for you (although I know it is very very hard).
If you face difficult time, you can still count on me. However, I will do it for friendship, not for love. Wish you the very best from now.

/I ve just realized that I was crying while typing. I look tough and independent outside but actually I am weak inside.